冬至节快乐

亲爱的Ah-Ma, 冬至节快乐!

虽然你不在我们的身边，不过你会永远在我们的怀念里。

永远想念你的Ah-Boy和家人!

almost a year since ya left... .. .

ah-ma, it has been almost a yr since ya left... .. .

this thursday is 农历生日七月一日... .. .

the day that marks your departure 1 yr ago... .. .

in actual fact, eng cal is on 1 August... .. . oh wel... .. .

everything seems like it was just yesterday and ya were still around... .. .

i reali wish that i could turn around the clock and visit ya more and often and spend more time with ya... .. .

ah-ma, ya deeply missed by ur grandson me ah-boy... .. .

and many others as well... .. .

Happy Mother's Day Ah-Ma!

亲爱的Ah-Ma, 祝你母亲节快乐！

Ah-Ma, 我们会永远怀念你的！

阿-Ma 49 Days... .. .

To be updated... .. .

From Ah-Di's (Cindy) Blog on Ah-Ma

Our grandma in loving memories

This picture was taken on Cousin Sam & Dom's wedding.. Though grandma left us for good on 01/08/08, but I do pray that she has a better life now. Throughout her sickness, saw her being so helpless wheelchair bounded, getting skinnier as days passes, I really feel heartache..

It has been years since I've last blogged, now just trying to find a place to voice out how I feel towards my Ah Ma's leaving & my new life with my 33 weeks & 2 days old baby in my tummy..

I do have regrets.. Regretted why I never visited my Ah Ma the week she left us.. Regretted that I haven't got the chance to thank her, thanking her for helping to save my marriage as I was once foolish to make a grave mistake.. I was stubborn then, but Ah Ma & Ah Gong softened me, made me really sit down & think through wat was right & wrong.. I really wana tell her sorry that I've made her worried and cried for my problems.. But... I have no more chance already.. Right now, here, I wana tell my Ah Ma, I love her and I'm really sorry..

Throughout all these years, I've never learnt how to communicate well wif the older generations.. Everytime I go visit Ah Ma & Ah Gong, all i know is to buy them food they like, sit around the house for a few hours to accompany them.. Only my hubby Ian knows how to chat wif both of the oldies in the house.. He has the patience to talk to them, listening to them telling their long long ago stories.. Dat's why, Ah Ma dotes him alot.. She keep telling me, my hubby is a very good man, asking me to treasure my marriage..

I did.. I wana tell Ah Ma, I've listened to her, I did try to amend myself, make up for the mistakes I've made.. I even have a great grandchild waiting for her to see, but she can't make it to wait and see.. I broke down the moment I saw her last in her bed, asking myself, why she never waited for my baby.... I told myself, Ah Ma has left to make everyone and herself suffer lesser.. She loves everyone around her, she just wanted to leave and end sufferings for all, including herself..

Now I just hope that Ah Gong can stay healthy and strong, on behalf of Ah Ma, to see all her great grandchildren coming to this world this year and next year.. I really feel better after voicing out wat I wana say here, rather than keeping all to myself.. Maybe I'll start blogging after my baby is born, putting all the pics in.. =)

Click here to visit Ah-Di's (Cindy) blog.

Visiting Ah-Ma

Went to visit Ah-Ma and also check if Ah-Ma's photo is already up, but havent leh...

2 pregnant mums...

Cindy, Bel & Dom.

Dom, Sam & Cindy.

Aunty Bel imitating Ah-Ma's pose when taking photos.

From Ah-Boy's (Sam) Blog on Ah-Ma

戊子年七月十四

今天是我的农历生日七月十四也是阿-Ma走的第十四天。。。
我记得小时候一到我的农历生日阿-Ma就会打电话给叫我过去她家拿红包！
不过今天阿-Ma没有打给我。。。
应为阿-Ma以经到了吉乐世界去了。。。

啊-Ma， 我好想念你啊!

While blogging this post, uncontrollably tears rolled down my cheeks... .. .
I miss Ah-Ma so much!

Click here to visit Ah-Boy's (Sam) blog.